The Great Things of Costa Rica

6/19/2008

It's been a difficult 24 hours. The fact that I am leaving, is just now sinking in, and it's hard. I stayed up last night just letting the tears come, until my head started pounding; then I remembered I had to wake up early. Ughhhh.

I'm not really sure why it's hitting me so hard, actually most everything has been hitting me pretty roughly lately. My roommate left this morning, and while I knew it was coming all year, it still was pretty hard to deal with. She and I have gotten so close this year, honestly she is the person I have gotten the closest to; and while I'm gonna see her in two weeks, the fact that this "life" that we have here in Costa Rica is over just seems unreal and unfair.

Yes I am so ready to go home; but the fact that our lives won't completely involve each other any more is weird and pretty depressing. We made bonds closer than any high school or college can offer, we are family. To me this is exceptionally amazing because I don't have any siblings, I've never known the bond between brothers and sisters. Yes, it was a bit hard at first; having to share my space, my life with fifteen other people, but God has blessed us so much with a sense if unity.

We have seen tragedy, felt pain, celebrated every single birthday, acted wild, grown in Christ, been treated unfairly, dealt with problems, watched countless movies, broken the rules, eaten just because, cooked together, cried endlessly, worshiped our Lord, rejoiced in His blessings, and too many more wonderful things to describe.

However much it hurts to leave, I have to accept that this will not be the best year of my life, and I hope I don't allow it to be. If this the pinnacle of my relationship with God, than I am doomed. It hurts, it's sad, yes, but I know He has my future in His hands, I know He is still writing my story, and this is just the beginning. I am excited.

Praise God for His blessings! Praise my Counselor for comforting me in these changing times!